I find I live life without getting too attached to anything. I find "outs" in every situation. I think to myself..."if I get something wrong at work, its ok, I'll just quit and find another job" If things aren't going too well with people I start distancing myself. I even think if I get to a point where I can't handle things anymore I can always "check out".


I get to a point where I think I just cant do this anymore. Maybe its the depression...

I wish I would go insane...I just am so tired of forcing myself to keep going...its really pointless. I don't get anywhere, barely keep my head above water. Anytime I think I'm getting there I get sucked under.

I wish God would just end it now, because I can't.